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No One Would Want Me If They Knew the Real Disabled Me

Posted by Natasha Tracy | Sep 15, 2022

I have thought that no one would want me if they knew the real me for, oh, my whole life. It’s not because I’m an ax-murderer or puppy-hater or anything; it’s just because I’m me, and “me” is very messy, indeed. The inner life of a bipolar can be torture. And then there’s whatever Natasha has to offer on top of it. And then there’s Ehler’s-Danlos. And then there’s fibromyalgia. And, really, I thought no one would want me before those last two really asserted themselves, so I can only imagine how undesirable I am now. But one thing I know is that many people think that no one would want them if they knew the real them. Specifically, I know that many disabled people think that no one would want them if they knew the real them. But do disabilities — bipolar disorder or otherwise — stand in the way of being desirable?

For When I’m Suicidal; For When You’re Suicidal

Posted by Natasha Tracy | Sep 5, 2022

Dear Suicidal Friend,

This sucks. Okay, it doesn’t just suck. It’s horrendous. It’s horrific. It’s soul-sucking. It’s suicidality at its finest. It’s lonely, and the pain is unbearable. I know what that feels like. I have been there many times before. I know how impossible just one more moment in the muck and mire feels. I have written about suicide over and over and over, and yet it doesn’t stop me from feeling suicidal again. It doesn’t stop me from wanting to kill myself. No amount of knowledge takes away the suffering.

How to Get Things Done with No Motivation — Amotivation, Avolition, Abulia

Posted by Natasha Tracy | Aug 3, 2022

I have no motivation, but I still have to get things done, just like everyone. Getting things done without motivation is no easy feat, however. I find that my amotivation (no motivation) combined with the other symptoms of depression pretty much glue me to the couch. And while there seems to be a lot of recognition of a lack of motivation and other similar concepts like abolition and abulia in mental illness, there seems to be precious few solutions. But, as amotivation has been my state for many years of my life, I’ve had to come up with coping techniques. Here is one revolving around how planning can thwart a lack of motivation.

Thoughts of Suicide Every Day

Posted by Natasha Tracy | Jun 23, 2022

Some people live with thoughts of suicide every day. I have lived this way. It’s hell. Persistent suicidality can happen in depression, although it’s not talked about very much. There is a notion that people think about suicide, and they either get help, which rids them of the thoughts, or act on the thoughts. And while I have no doubt some people have had that experience, for many, this just isn’t reality. Even the best treatment can’t always rid a person of constant thoughts of suicide.

The Problem with Mental Health Apps in 2022

Posted by Natasha Tracy | Jun 8, 2022

There are major problems with mental health apps. I hate to be a Negative Nancy about it, but there are. According to a webcast, I watched recently called BlogHer, there are more than 10,000 mental health apps in the app store right now. This must be a good thing, right? Well, I would argue that quality is much more important than quantity in the mental health space. We are talking about your health here. It would be nice to put that in the hands of people who know what they’re doing. But I would argue that 10,000 mental health apps certainly can’t claim that.

Emotional Permanence Problems and Anxiety

Posted by Natasha Tracy | May 23, 2022

Emotional permanence is a term I recently heard for the first time. It has to do with believing in emotions even when they can’t be seen. This concept is taken from object permanence which is the understanding that objects exist even when they can’t be seen. When I read the term, I realized that I have problems with emotional permanence. I also realized that not having a consistent sense of emotional permanence was a major cause of anxiety.

New Podcast on Mental Illness in the Workplace

Posted by Natasha Tracy | May 17, 2022

I’m so pleased to announce that this Thursday, I’m launching Snap Out of It! The Mental Illness in the Workplace Podcast with Natasha Tracy. (You can always find it via “Podcast” on the top menu.) This podcast is unique because, as the name suggests, we are focusing on mental illness in the workplace and not the overly-general mental health in the workplace. Don’t get me wrong, there is a place for discussing mental health in the workplace too, but that’s not the focus of this podcast. Just like on this blog, I’m focusing on mental illness.

Having a Mentally Ill Parent — What It’s Like

Posted by Natasha Tracy | May 5, 2022

I had a mentally ill parent. It was my father. He’s dead now, but when he was here, he was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Of course, I didn’t find out about that until I was an adult. That secret affected my life from the time I was a child. What it’s like to have a mentally ill parent is different for different people, but here’s what having a mentally ill parent was like for me.

How to Keep Productive During Depression Despite a Lack of Motivation

Posted by Natasha Tracy | Apr 7, 2022

Keeping productive and motivated during depression is a tall task. Depression wants to suck all of the productivity and motivation out of you to the point where you become nothing but a lump on your couch. I know all about this. I work from home and for myself and so without a boss or yearly reviews, depression really has a leg up when it comes to causing a lack of productivity. That’s why I have to take productivity and motivation very seriously. Here are a few techniques to maintain productivity and motivation during depression.