I went to university with bipolar disorder. In fact, I graduated with a bachelor’s degree in computer science with bipolar disorder. I know it’s incredibly difficult but I know it can be done. Today I want to talk about how you can do it too, and about a source of free money for
My Bipolar Diagnosis Was at University
I was in a profound bipolar depression by the time I was in my second year of university. To say I didn’t know what to do is understating it. I didn’t know what bipolar disorder was at the time let alone how to manage it or how to deal with the increasing impossibility of university at the same time.
But I learned. I was thrown into the deep end and I flailed until I swam. And I can’t promise I can teach you to swim too, but I promise the hope is there.
Resources at University/College for Those with Bipolar
For me, there were two major resources of help at university for my bipolar disorder:
- University health services (where I saw a psychiatrist)
- Counseling services (where I saw a psychologist)
And while I didn’t use it (I didn’t even think about it and no one told me about it), disability services would have been another great resource and is definitely something you want to keep in touch with if you’re at university/college with a mental illness. These people can help you find more resources for your disability and help you get the reasonable
And while psychiatric services would have been free no matter what (in Canada) the counseling services likely wouldn’t have been off-campus and I wouldn’t have been able to afford it. Utilizing the free on-campus resources was great.
How I Got Through University with Bipolar Disorder
I Took Fewer Courses
At my university, five courses
When I became very ill, I found I could only take three courses at a time — the minimum allowable to be considered a full-time student (important for student loans). But, if I had declared that I had a disability, two courses would have been considered full-time. And, of course, serious mental illnesses are considered disabilities (by the American with Disabilities Act [ACA]). In my case, I also had to work to supplement my student loans to afford university.
Three courses at a time
I Accepted a Lesser Academic Standard
I know this is going to seem sacrilege to some of us as so many of us are perfectionists, but the only way I could succeed was to let go of the idea that I was going to get straight As. You might be different, but then again, you might be like me and need to realize that you’ll never move forward, you’ll only burn
I Sought Out and Maintained Treatment
And just like when you become an adult in the work world, you need to seek out and maintain quality mental health treatment when you have bipolar disorder in university.
This didn’t always do well for me and I had a doctor give up on me during that time. Nevertheless, I persisted and my psychologist didn’t leave my side.
Go to your healthcare appointments. Take you medication. Work at therapy. These things are critical.
I Learned About Bipolar Disorder at University
I also took control of my own psychoeducation. This is just a fancy word that means learning about your own mental illness. I started learning about bipolar disorder and I just never stopped. To this day I learn more and more. Keep in mind, you don’t need to be an expert on bipolar disorder, but you do need to be an expert on your own bipolar disorder. This is critical.
Free Money for Your University Career in the Area of Mental Health
Now that I’ve shared a few tips so that you can survive university with bipolar disorder, I’d like to point you towards a source of free money.
I know, they say there’s no free lunch, but this might just be a sandwich gratis.
This scholarship is called the Healthline and NAMI Stronger Scholarship. These annual scholarship funds are going to be given to four outstanding students working to change the face — and future — of mental health.
About That Free Money
This year’s scholarship is dedicated to the advancement of mental health, either through research, raising awareness, community building, or combatting stigma. The program will award four students with a $5,000 scholarship each. The awarded scholarships will include:
- Two scholarships awarded to undergraduate recipients making an impact on mental health
- Two scholarships awarded to graduate recipients making an impact on mental health
And I’m sorry to say it’s only for students in the United States.
Applying for the Free Money
If you want to get your hands on some of this free money, see the requirements and apply here. Good luck!
My name is Edwin and I went to university to study Mathematics with bipolar. I was diagnosed with bipolar while in sixth form. I managed to get a diploma in Mathematics but dropped out to third year. I am now finishing my Maths degree online. My experience is that studying a degree on campus is worse for mental health than online due to more pressure to complete more modules. In my case I handle my condition well and a relapse doesn’t happen often enough to disrupt my studies too much. When I fist was diagnosed I was upset but then I later came to terms with “feelings matter” and came to terms with it. I play the piano and have published my own music.
I guess it’s absolutely true that there is a world of difference between bipolar disorder and “a persons” bipolar disorder. In my humble opinion it is very difficult to find treatment that fits “a persons” needs and even worse when a problem is tackled there will be more standing in line.
One thing I can’t get over is how far universities and colleges are willing to go to help these days, all you need to do is ask. Given how open current generation university students are to mental health issues (at least compared to the stone ages when I went to university, late 80’s, early 90’s), there’s a lot of support available and it’s very well used. No reason to try to be a martyr (and risk your health further) if you have any significant mental illness. Pays to find out ahead of time about the supports that can be made available, as well as policies around extensions, medical/compassionate withdrawals, etc. Many of these have specific rules/deadlines attached to them, and while you can often appeal your way out of those, it’s easier if you don’t have to. Instructors aren’t always fully up-to-date with all of the details, but the folks who manage the disability support services in general are great.
I’m glad you posted about this, Natasha! I often read posts on forums from young people struggling to get through college or who have had to drop out. I’m quite a bit older than them. I was in college between 1989 and 1993. I don’t believe they had any scholarships such as you mentioned back then, and I’m not even sure if they had a disabilities department, or if they did, how much they helped people with mental illnesses. Back then they did have a health center at my university. I was referred to a university psychiatrist (but not a therapist). I recall going to him describing what was surely a severe mixed episode with some minor psychosis from time to time. What did he do? He prescribed Prozac for me with no follow-up appointment. I took the Prozac for maybe three to seven days and had a mood switch to hypomania/mania and did some pretty bad/wild things as a result. I’m sure most colleges and universities are much better than that nowadays, at least it sounds like it from your blog post.
I had some semesters when I was on the Dean’s list with 15 to 18 credits and others where I struggled because of mood issues, particularly depression. At my university, 12 credits was the minimum to stay on campus. I took 12 credits one semester when depressed and got mostly C’s, I believe a D, and maybe one B that semester. That was well below my usual performance, but it was unavoidable. Looking back, I find it amazing that I even managed to stay on campus or study at all that semester let alone getting mediocre grades. In the long run, such rough semesters make very little difference. I also had a semester when I took 21 credits and excelled. I was hypomanic that semester. That may sound ideal, but the 21 credit semester was the one after my mood switch from the Prozac. Again, bad things happened. I also lost a lot of weight. I had not be overweight. I looked anorexic in the end. I can’t imagine in a million years ever being that weight again!
I wish I had been diagnosed much younger than I was. I believe I would have reached many more of my dreams and avoided disability if I had. I had never even heard of manic depression or bipolar disorder until I was 32 years old, in 2005.