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Depression – How Hard It Is to Wake Up Crying

→ February 21, 2018 - 5 Comments

Depression – How Hard It Is to Wake Up Crying

Some days, depression actually makes me wake up crying. Sometimes the crying is a few minutes after waking up and sometimes it is mere seconds. I have even woken up in the morning with tears on my face. I don’t know how these things are possible. I don’t know how depression can make me cry when I wake up before thoughts are even produced – I only know that it can.

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Mental Health Politically Correct Language Is Not Superior, Just Different

→ February 12, 2018 - 9 Comments

Mental Health Politically Correct Language Is Not Superior, Just Different

I do not consider mental health-related politically correct language to be superior in any way. People who know me know I’m not a big fan of political correctness in the mental health arena. I don’t give a hoot about “person-first language.” I don’t care if you absentmindedly call the weather “bipolar.” And I will always call a spade a spade and say I represent the mentally ill and not those with “behavioral health conditions.” And I talk about violence and mental illness and other things that we’re not supposed to mention because it scares the villagers. And I certainly don’t think insisting on changing the aforementioned things (and oh-so-much-more) helps those of us with mental illness in the slightest. I realize, this puts me in the minority (and she laughs), but my opinion is, politically correct language in mental health is not superior, just different.

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Bipolar, Schizophrenia and Depression Are Genetically Linked

→ February 11, 2018 - 14 Comments

Bipolar, Schizophrenia and Depression Are Genetically Linked

I know to some people, saying that bipolar, schizophrenia and depression are genetic is like saying the sky is blue. We know that these illnesses are genetic. It’s obvious. It’s also pretty obvious (to, me, anyway) that bipolar disorder, depression and schizophrenia overlap in some ways. Nonetheless, some people require yet more proof. Well, welcome to some more proof. Bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, depression (and actually autism and alcoholism) are genetic and these illnesses’ genes even overlap. Yes, we bipolars are genetically linked to our brothers and sisters with other psychiatric disorders.

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When Bipolar Disorder Makes Me Feel Useless

→ February 7, 2018 - 7 Comments

When Bipolar Disorder Makes Me Feel Useless

Bipolar disorder can absolutely make me feel useless. I woke up this morning and I went about my routine of feeding the cats, taking meds and so on. That’s fine. Then I sat down at my computer to start work. I started doing my social media tasks for the day, answering comments and so on. And then my brain just seized. Suddenly, thanks to bipolar disorder, I was useless.

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I Can’t Do Anything Because of Depression – Or Can I?

→ January 30, 2018 - 16 Comments

I Can’t Do Anything Because of Depression – Or Can I?

I so often feel like I can’t do anything because of depression. Look at the top photo. That is my life. I have had that objet cluttered and dusty for maybe years. It’s just one of the things in my apartment that I look at and see as failure. I see that I can’t do anything. I see that I can’t even clean up a small amount of clutter – clutter that can be found in so many corners of my apartment and life. Depression makes it so that I can’t do anything. However, while I feel this quite strongly, it may not, in fact, be entirely true.

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Recognizing the Real, Bipolar You and Not the Idealized You

→ January 24, 2018 - 13 Comments

Recognizing the Real, Bipolar You and Not the Idealized You

I realize I need to recognize the real me who has bipolar disorder and not the idealized me that, theoretically, does not. What I need to recognize, to deal with, is the me of today and not the me before bipolar disorder or the me of five years ago. Things change. I have changed dramatically and what I’m capable of has changed too. I need to recognize this in everyday life. I need to work with the current, real, bipolar me and not the me I wish I were.

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Why I Don’t Hate Drug Companies & Why You Shouldn’t Either

→ January 17, 2018 - 5 Comments

Why I Don’t Hate Drug Companies & Why You Shouldn’t Either

Many people hate drug companies and I totally get why. I spent years hating drug companies. But I’ve changed. I don’t hate drug companies anymore and I don’t think you should either.

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Can You Be Fat and Happy on Bipolar Medication?

→ January 9, 2018 - 18 Comments

Can You Be Fat and Happy on Bipolar Medication?

For many of us, we are expected to be fat and happy on bipolar medication. This is because many people gain weight as a bipolar medication side effect – sometimes a lot of weight. You can easily go from a size 8 to a size 18 because of bipolar medication. This is not what happens to everyone, but for those for whom it does happen, the question is, can we be fat and happy on bipolar medication?

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Good and Bad New Year’s Resolutions If You Have Bipolar

→ January 1, 2018 - 6 Comments

Good and Bad New Year’s Resolutions If You Have Bipolar

It’s the time of year when everyone is making New Year’s resolutions – including New Year’s resolutions by those with bipolar disorder. While I’m not a huge believer in “New Year’s” resolutions (I think you can resolve to change in small ways at any time), I do think that there are ways to create good New Year’s resolutions if you have bipolar disorder and, perhaps more importantly, bad ones. Here’s how to avoid bad New Year’s resolutions by making good New Year’s resolutions if you have bipolar disorder.

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Causing a Bad Bipolar Day – What Did I Do Wrong Yesterday?

→ December 13, 2017 - 7 Comments

Causing a Bad Bipolar Day – What Did I Do Wrong Yesterday?

If you have a bad bipolar day, you might wonder what you did wrong yesterday to cause it. I know I feel this way. I know I look for causes. And I know it feels like it’s my fault. I feel like I must have done something wrong to cause the bad bipolar day. It feels like a punishment for screwing up the previous day.

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Bipolar Disorder – I’m Not Angry but My Bipolar Brain Is

→ December 5, 2017 - 14 Comments

Bipolar Disorder – I’m Not Angry but My Bipolar Brain Is

My bipolar makes me feel so angry, but I know I’m not. I know I’m not really angry. I know that the signals that I’m angry are coming from my sick, bipolar brain. But I feel very angry anyway. I can’t make the anger go away, even through notable insight. It’s so frustrating and the existence of the anger, and my inability to make it go away, makes me even madder.

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Medication Adherence Improvement with Abilify Computer Chip?

→ November 20, 2017 - 14 Comments

Medication Adherence Improvement with Abilify Computer Chip?

Last week, the Food and Drug Administration (FDA) approved the use of a computer chip inside of aripiprazole (Abilify) pills. This computer chip is designed to indicate whether the person has taken his or her medication or not. The theory (and marketing push) is that this computer chip will improve treatment adherence (compliance). It will “ensure” people are taking their medications as prescribed. But will a computer chip inside of an antipsychotic really improve medication adherence?

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