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Why I Tattooed Over My Suicide Attempt Scars

→ October 10, 2017 - 4 Comments

Why I Tattooed Over My Suicide Attempt Scars

Last week I tattooed over my suicide attempt scars. This isn’t because I wanted to cover every scar on my body – quite frankly, I have tens of self-harm scars – this is for other reasons. Covering specifically my suicide attempt scars with a tattoo is symbolic. I consider it positive and I hope its permanency will remind me of its positivity for the rest of my life.

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Living with Wanting to Be Dead

→ October 9, 2017 - 12 Comments

Living with Wanting to Be Dead

I want to be dead. I live with wanting to be dead every day. It’s this thought that constantly plagues my mind: “I want to be dead.” I want to not be here. I want to go home. I want anything that will end the suffering. Living with wanting to be dead is, well, a bitch.

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Bipolar Is an Invisible Illness — Let’s Make It Visible

→ October 1, 2017 - 2 Comments

Bipolar Is an Invisible Illness — Let’s Make It Visible

Many people have made the point bipolar disorder is an invisible illness. That’s one of the things about it that makes it so frustrating. People can’t see bipolar disorder; it isn’t part of their reality; so, obviously, it isn’t important or life-altering. Some people take this to the conclusion of suggesting bipolar disorder doesn’t really exist at all. But we know bipolar disorder is real. We know something doesn’t have to be outwardly visible, or even visible under a microscope, to be real. Bipolar disorder may be an inherently invisible illness but let’s do what we can to make it visible. Let’s stand up for what we can’t see.

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Focusing on Not Making My Bipolar Disorder Worse

→ September 19, 2017 - 13 Comments

Focusing on Not Making My Bipolar Disorder Worse

My daily life is based around the single concept of not making my bipolar disorder worse. It seems I’ve gotten past the point where I can do anything to get better, so all I can do is not make my bipolar disorder worse. This is an incredibly depressing realization. This realization posits that I will be in pain every day and the only thing I can do is not make that pain worse. I will continue to be bludgeoned every day, all I can do is make the club smaller.

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LGBTQ Youth with Bipolar Need Our Help — Stop Suicide in the LGBTQ Community

→ September 12, 2017 - 18 Comments

LGBTQ Youth with Bipolar Need Our Help — Stop Suicide in the LGBTQ Community

Suicide in the LGBTQ community is rampant. And in those in the LGBTQ community with bipolar disorder, it’s even worse. Please help stem that tide.

I know many of you are straight — most of you are, in fact. But I’m not. I’m bisexual. I’m part of the LGBTQ community and I’m asking for your help to stop suicide in this community and especially in the community where an LGBTQ person also has bipolar disorder. A queer youth with bipolar disorder has the very highest risk of suicide. This double-whammy of a sexuality that many won’t accept and an illness that can take your life is something that is almost impossible to deal with.

Almost.

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When You Don’t Know What to Do Because of Bipolar Disorder

→ September 7, 2017 - 14 Comments

When You Don’t Know What to Do Because of Bipolar Disorder

I’m often caught in the eye of bipolar disorder and I don’t know what to do. This can manifest as not knowing what to do next with treatment, what to write in my next article or even what action I should take next during the day. I just feel lost. Being overwhelmed with bipolar disorder is definitely part of this, but I think bipolar disorder almost zaps the thoughts of what to do next from my brain. I just don’t know what to do.

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Judging My Bipolar Disorder Disability

→ August 30, 2017 - 20 Comments

Judging My Bipolar Disorder Disability

I judge my bipolar disorder disability. I admit it. I do. I wish I didn’t. I wish I were more Buddhist. I wish I could show more enlightenment in this way. But I judge how disabled I am by my bipolar disorder and I just don’t know how not to.

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How I Know I Have to Take Medication for My Bipolar Disorder

→ August 24, 2017 - 13 Comments

How I Know I Have to Take Medication for My Bipolar Disorder

I know I need to take medication for my bipolar disorder. I know that going without medication isn’t an option for me. I know that I am far too sick for non-medication options to make even a dent in my illness. These things are clear to me. This is how I know I have to take medication for my bipolar disorder.

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Bipolar Disorder and Pushing Past Your Limits

→ August 17, 2017 - 13 Comments

Bipolar Disorder and Pushing Past Your Limits

Pushing past your limits when you have bipolar disorder is dangerous. I should know; I tend to do it. I tend to work too much and too hard. And while that might simply make a normal person a “workaholic” or an “A-type personality” it makes me sick, sick, sick. This is an article about doing what I say and not what I do. Don’t push past your limits if you have bipolar disorder.

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Self-Soothing Bipolar Disorder Pain the Right Way

→ August 7, 2017 - 6 Comments

Self-Soothing Bipolar Disorder Pain the Right Way

Knowing how to self-soothe is important in the face of bipolar disorder pain. Even if you’re not in pain today, likely you will be at some point in the future so self-soothing techniques matter a lot. Some people find positive self-soothing techniques for bipolar pain easy to employ while many others find only negative ones. Here are some negative and positive self-soothing ideas for bipolar pain.

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Trusted Health Articles to Your Phone or Computer: MedCircle

→ August 3, 2017 - 1 Comment

Trusted Health Articles to Your Phone or Computer: MedCircle

MedCircle is a new phone app and website that allows you access to curated, high-quality, accurate, health-related articles. What does this mean? It means that instead of Googling “bipolar” and getting back a zillion trashy results from sources you can’t trust (a pet peeve of mine), you can get articles on bipolar disorder from sources that have been reviewed by medical experts.

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The Language of Insanity

→ July 20, 2017 - 20 Comments

The Language of Insanity

Currently, there seems to be no sufficient language of insanity. What I mean, is that for those of us who experience highly unusual cognitive states, there is no adequate way of describing them. “Mood disorder”, “hypomania”, “anxiety”, and all those other psychological/psychiatric terms just don’t do it. Insanity needs its own language.

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