Saturday, 1:30 AM

Continuing on the chronotherapy experiment…

Thus ends the first sleep. It was supposed to be 7 hours but apparently, that was not to be. I went to bed at 6:oo PM as directed, but sleep would not come. I didn’t sleep any sleep medication as I felt that after 36 hours I would actually fall asleep on my own. Ah, have I learned nothing about my brain!?

I gave up around 7:oo PM and took a sleeping pill. I was trying to avoid that as sleeping pills last a minimum of 8 hours and I’m trying to fix my circadian rhythm, not fuck it further. But really, the chronotherapy protocol didn’t say anything about this, so perhaps it’s to be expected.

I then did doze off and on until 12:30 AM when my dawn-simulator started to, um, simulate dawn. The slightest light and I was painfully awake. Again. Lucky fucking me.

Now I am seriously tired and exhausted and with a nasty worsening depression. That’ll happen when you don’t sleep. Everything in the body seems to hurt. Blood pressure returned to normal.

Thursday – stay awake all day and night

Friday – stay awake all day

Friday – 5:00 AM – 7:00 AM – light therapy

Friday – 6:00 PM – 1:00 AM – sleep

Saturday – 5:00 AM – 7:00 AM – light therapy

Saturday – 8:00 PM – 3:00 AM – sleep

Sunday – 5:00 AM – 7:00 AM – light therapy

Sunday – 10:00 PM – 5:00 AM – sleep

Readings:

Depression 6

Anxiety 3

Energy 2

Hypomania 0

Panic 0

And it’s only 18 hours until I get to (try to) go back to sleep. Yay.