People with mental illness frequently stop taking their medication. This is known as medication non-adherence or medication noncompliance. No matter what doctors choose to call it, however, it’s a problem. By and large, when the mentally ill stop taking their medication bad things happen to them. But if this is the case, then why do people with mental illness stop taking their medication?

Taking Medication for Mental Illness

I have been taking medication for mental illness for about 22 years. Over that time, I’ve tried pretty much every anticonvulsant, every antidepressant and every atypical antipsychotic and I’ve tried them in so many combinations, it feels more like a math problem than a mental illness issue.

And in that time, I’ve also had virtually every side effect. Everything from hair loss, to massive weight gain to body temperature change to high blood pressure to dizziness, to nausea and so very many more. And even now, of course, I still experience many drug side effects — after all, all drugs have them and the more drugs are in your cocktail, the more side effects you are likely to experience.

And here’s what I can tell you with absolute certainty — medication for mental illness is horrible. Medication for mental illness can make you feel like dreck. Medication for mental illness can make you wonder if the treatment is worse than the illness. That is what I can tell you for sure.

And while I’ve taken all those drugs, in some ways I’ve been lucky because for bipolar disorder, antipsychotic doses tend to be small and used in addition to more palatable medication. The same can not be said for those with schizophrenia. Typically, those people have to take doses of antipsyhchotics that would put me in a coma (among other things).

Others Opinion’s on Taking Medication for Mental Illness

This doesn’t even start to address the assholes (yes, I said it) that actually tell people with mental illness to get off of their medications. It’s hard enough to stay on horrible mental illness medication at the best of times but when there are groups out there that actively tell you you’re doing the wrong thing, it’s even harder. The pressure is very, very real. Scientology, some religions and antipsychiatrists exert this pressure and their heinous advice has harmed (often killed) many — not just people who have become floridly ill once off of medications, but also those around them who have become victims of the untreated mentally ill person.

Keep in mind untrained of under-trained professionals along with peers can also exert this pressure. It certainly has happened that people have gone to others such as a herbalist or counselor or peer supporter or many others to get help only to be told to stop their treatment. This is unacceptable but happens when people don’t know what they’re talking about. This, too, is seductive to the person in pain in mental illness treatment.

So the question becomes not, “Why do people with mental illness stop taking medication?” but, rather, “Why do people with mental illness actually stay on medication?”

Other Reasons to Stop Taking Mental Illness Medication

And there are yet other reasons people stop taking mental illness medications too. One of them is thinking that they don’t need the medication because they feel better. A well brain tends to think it doesn’t need external chemicals to function often thanks to the stigma surrounding taking mental illness medication. The trap here is that they only feel better because of the medication. Unfortunately, many people fail to realize this until they’re sick off medication again.

Finally, people stop taking medication because they don’t realize they are sick because of anosognosia. Anosognosia is a clinical lack of insight that occurs as a symptom of severe mental illness. I stress, this is neurological in nature and not the same thing as denial. This happens when the medication isn’t working well enough to address this situation. (Successful treatment of the mental illness also treats the anosognosia.)

Stopping Medication for Mental Illness

Because the thing is, I highly doubt there is a treated bipolar or schizophrenic out there that hasn’t wanted to throw their medications out the window at some point — myself included. I can’t tell you the number of times I’ve almost stopped, myself. (And I’ve written about the rare occasion when medication nonadherence or noncompliance is actually a good thing.)

But here’s the thing, if you have a mental illness and stop taking your medication, very, very bad things are likely to happen to you.

The first bad thing is withdrawal. People with mental illness who stop taking their medication tend to do it cold turkey because they are so fed up with the whole process. I understand this, but it’s a terrible idea. Withdrawal — acute and long-term — can be harrowing. Withdrawal from medication differs wildly with some medications being easier to withdraw from than others (and lower doses being easier to withdraw from than larger doses) but regardless, you will likely be in some form of pain, I promise.

After that, it gets worse. It gets worse because whatever you took the medication for in the first place returns. Disembodied voices return. Suicidal urges return. Outrageous spending habits return. Even violent impulses return. Because remember, you went on the medication for a gosh darn good reason in the first place and now, whatever reason that was is 100 percent back in your face. And this tends to result in people ending up in the hospital — at least, in the case of bipolar disorder, anyway. And, of course, the first thing they will do in the hospital is restart your medication. It’s an un-merry-go-round: medications, side effects, stopping, withdrawal, illness, hospital, mediations.

The only thing getting off of medication can do is get rid of horrible side effects — not cure whatever the underlying illness is. Sometimes we forget this. Sometimes we forget the agony of the untreated illness until going without medication makes it painfully clear. Again, medication was started for a reason.

It’s the typical out-of-the-frying-pan-and-into-the-fire scenario. But make no mistake about it, being on medication for mental illness can feel like being in a frying pan and it can make the fire look more appealing. This involves a false vision and usually rewritten history (i.e., the illness wasn’t that bad) but it is a real draw. Something we all — especially doctors — need to thoroughly understand and for which we need to develop empathy.

Because while the sickness of medications can pass, it’s true, sometimes there are long-term side effects that simply have to be borne by the person with mental illness. This is really, really shitty, but true for so many of us. Truly, wanting to get off this stuff is completely reasonable, it’s just something we can’t afford to do.

If You’re Thinking of Stopping Mental Illness Medication

If you’re on mental illness medication and can’t withstand the side effects — your feelings are very real and valid and need to be considered by your doctor. Have a straight talk with your doctor and simply say, “I can’t withstand these side effects. We need to make some changes.” And once you lay out what you can’t withstand, listen to what your doctor says. Maybe a tweak can address the worst of it. Maybe you haven’t given it long enough. Maybe there is no better choice. Any of those things are possible, but you won’t get down to the nitty-gritty until you make it absolutely clear to the doctor that the status quo is unacceptable. And if he or she refuses to listen? Time for a new doctor. Remember, that doctor works for you and not the other way around.

Stopping medication for mental illness is not the answer. It’s understandable, but it’s not the answer. Working with your doctor, or seeing someone new, is.

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