I’m a bipolar writer. This is not news to anyone. As a person with bipolar disorder, I naturally have good days and bad days. Specifically, I naturally have average days and horrifically depressed days. And it impresses people that the Bipolar Burble blog manages to stay running through it all. Every week I get one or two posts up no matter what.
So people have asked me, how the heck do you do that? How do you keep a (popular) bipolar blog going through the depressed times?
Have Bipolar Blog Articles in the Hopper – Plan for Bipolar Depression
One technique that’s easy to implement is simply to write what you plan on posting ahead of time. When you feel good – write – and write a lot. Write more than you need so that when things all fall apart, you have something from the good times to spread around through the depressed times.
This comes down to planning for your depression. Rather than denying that it will ever happen again, admit that yes, bipolar depression happens, and you should plan for it and not let it drown you completely when it appears.
Use the Bipolar Depression
I actually can write when I’m depressed – but it’s usually pretty depressing stuff. That’s okay though, see, I write a bipolar blog and people expect that sort of thing here. Use your depression to gain insight into bipolar disorder and into depression. Use what you’re feeling as inspiration for a blog post. When you can’t stop crying all day – use it and talk about how many Kleenex boxes you’ve had to buy. When you can’t get up to get your kids off to school write about the stress that bipolar depression places on a marriage. When you only leave your bed to feed your cats, talk about how pets are one of the things that can keep people with bipolar disorder going. Or remark on the nature of pain, sadness, pajamas or whatever works for you at the time.
I know it may seem a little cold, but if you’re a writer, then write it out. It’s what we do. (You can always temper it before posting if you need to.)
Make a Writing Schedule, but Know When to Break It
Try to make sure you have a certain amount of content coming out – whatever works for you. (For the most successful blogs I would say four articles a week (Monday-Thursday) but who the heck has time for that?) And try to promise yourself that even if it’s something short, even if it’s just a comment on something you read on the Huffington Post, you will write something.
Of course also don’t use this schedule to beat yourself up. Beating yourself up about not sticking to a writing schedule will not help your bipolar depression.
But I Can’t Write During a Depression!
Okay, I get it, sometimes you just can’t write and sometimes there are no articles left from the good times. If this happens to you, then find something easy to write about (like a book review, for example, or talk about a blog article that someone else wrote) or write about the fact that you can’t write during a bipolar depression. Talk about what that does to you. Talk about why you can’t write. The fact that you can’t write is part of the experience of being a writer with bipolar disorder and you are allowed to talk about that. And most of your audience will get it because most of them have been in a place where they can’t keep their lives going during a bipolar depression too.
Bipolar Depression – Suck it Up
Now, I’m not telling you to suck it up, but I’m saying that’s what I do. I suck it up. I say to myself, “self, I know you want to overdose on those pills in the corner of the room but that has no bearing on the fact that you have two articles to write today so shut the hell up and just do it.”
I’m not saying you should be that mean to yourself, but I’m saying that I am. It’s just what works for me. You don’t have to do it.
Be Proud of Your Bipolar Blog
And when it comes down to it, be proud of what you can do when you can do it. You’ve accomplished more than many who haven’t yet even been able to begin the process. So you haven’t posted in a while – no problem – there’s always tomorrow for that. Be proud of the people that you help with your words because those people don’t care about your writing schedule, they only care that you have written.
Know when your energy is high. Start the blog entry and eventually there will be a
change in perspective as words get stacked one on another, or a picture punctuates your point
of view. This comment pertains to me – it may also include you too. Like many efforts it eventually
becomes a joy that you look forward to.
My wife thought about starting a blog a while ago, but backed out due to the nature of the disease. She was very excited for it for a couple days, and then when a day swing would start she didn’t want anything to do with it.
We decided to start a blog as a team. That way I could write about my experiences (living with a bipolar spouse), and she could still write her feeling when she was well enough.
We’ve only been at it for a short time, but so far so good.
Thanks for the tips, I’ll definitely share with my wife.
Going well at the moment but dread a high coming on.Taking things nice and handy.Eating lots of fruit and walking for an hour every day.Exercise is the key for me
Natasha:
Thanx for this practical advice. I am on disability due to my Bipolar Disorder & I (@rjs338) greatly appreciate your insight & dedication to your readership. I am inspired by you & your body of work.
Just recently found your blog and thanks for your post. Thinking of starting just such a thing myself as I am hoping to gain some insight and knowledge that would otherwise be lost in the days chaos. Writing causes me to think differently about by symptoms, organize my thoughts, and become aware of my perceptions, instead of numbing them out with finding the next manic high, and hey, if writing becomes my next manic high all the better right.
Great tips here, Natasha. I struggle with producing enough content for my blog too, not because of being bipolar, but due to anxiety disorder. I’ve has months go by where i was too paralyzed to produce anything. I’m going to use some of these suggestions to help create a more even flow of content. Thanks!
I am textbook bipolar 1 and when I am manic…all I can do is write, read and think about inspiring “things”. I feel that each event that happens to me is life changing and the way in which I look at the world is different than others that don’t suffer from bipolar. My manic highs are VERY high- the last manic episode I went through lasted 9 months of hypomania…I can’t even begin to tell you how much work I got done….
On the flip side, when I go through depressive episodes. My body shut downs, my brain turns off….what I thought were great ideas seem to be stupid and not important to anyone. I feel as if anything that I say….it could hurt someone… I feel like I am constantly being judged so I want to be alone. When I am in depressive episode, I am too afraid of what I would write so I have a personal video camera that I talk to…..that way I can get my thoughts out but I don’t need to look at it.
I believe that it’s important to do a lot of your writing when you’re “stable”. Stable is a very odd term to me because who defines you as stable…right?
Natasha- I applaud your efforts while writing when you’re depressed because it is in those difficult times when you show your true colors and I look at them as “character building” times.
Great post and thanks for sharing and writing it :)
I have depression and a panic disorder and my anxiety often prevents me from “showing up” to my blog and writing. I like your first tip the best, write a lot when you can! I often draft several posts at a time and write as much as I can on each topic, and later edit them, just so I have ideas and content ready to go when I am stuck in my own head.
This could apply to grad school writing, too – for the most part. Especially when I start my dissertation – I really do need a plan… Thanks for sharing this!
Thank you for this, Natasha. I don’t get depressed all that often (mania is a more frequent visitor), but when it happens my blog suffers badly. I appreciate the ideas for writing when I can’t think of anything to talk about, and knowing that it’s OK to share the bad stuff with my readers. I’m still pretty new at being a bipolar writer and your blog never fails to inspire me to do better, to write more, and to keep plugging away at it because I do NOT intend to stay mired in obscurity for the rest of my life. :-)
I look at Bipolar “episodes” as this: When you are in a “functional” up episode… DO AS MUCH AS YOU CAN HANDLE, because once I go into a “dysfunctional debilitating” depressive episode… little or nothing gets accomplished.
Now… this does not mean that some manias aren’t equally dysfunctional and debilitating… cause I’ve had some REAL doozies, but I’ve learned over my years and years… that when I have the increased energy – focus and more importantly drive… to just get as much taken care of, accomplished, and completed or at least get 2/3 of the way through whatever task and/or project… BEFORE the life and soul sucking fog permeates me to snuff me out.
Course… when you can feel and see that fog approaching, even if on the proverbial horizon, it makes me sometimes feel desperate to get whatever finished… the fog slowly and methodically approaches, the desperation increases…
I feel when I’m depressed I can’t find the words.
Kinda like standing in the groc shop and not knowing what items to buy…I too,kinda say suck it up too.
Like today our power went out from morning till now,I have just got outta hospital for pneumonia..
Then I looked round at the stacks of dishes & trash..remembering how much better I feel if I do even 2 small things.
So I did,yes feel a bit better due to that,plus power is back on,it will be nice & warm soon.i know that suicidal ideation happens to us,best way I learned to deal is to make a plan..& stick to it,the old saying holds true this too shall pass. Plus feeling crappy physically is a bummer for even normies as I call them.it will come & go.remember this like a mantra. It holds true,plus if I’m real sad I let it out & just cry,it’s ok to do that for me now.
Haha! Speaking of grammar…
…oops :/
This exact mechanism is how I was finally able to graduate from business school and now I have a successful career and the means to spoil my wife rotten. Thank you for addressing this.
Side note: I follow columnists, current events, Politico, WSJ, Washington Post, Runners World, and Salt Lake Tribune religiously; but yours is the only blog I follow and it never lets Mr read an article without doing some serious introspection. So thanks for that too.
Hi Jake,
Thanks :) I do love my faithful readers – and I love hearing that I’m inspiring introspection, after all, that’s what it takes for me to write these things.
And yes, as you said, these mechanisms can work with anything you do, at least, hopefully.
(Nice to know you spoil your wife rotten and love it. Love that.)
– Natasha Tracy