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Can You Be Fat and Happy on Bipolar Medication?

Posted by Natasha Tracy | Jan 9, 2018

For many of us, we are expected to be fat and happy on bipolar medication. This is because many...

Causing a Bad Bipolar Day – What Did I Do Wrong Yesterday?

Posted by Natasha Tracy | Dec 13, 2017

If you have a bad bipolar day, you might wonder what you did wrong yesterday to cause it. I know I feel this way. I know I look for causes. And I know it feels like it’s my fault. I feel like I must have done something wrong to cause the bad bipolar day. It feels like a punishment for screwing up the previous day.

Bipolar Disorder – I’m Not Angry but My Bipolar Brain Is

Posted by Natasha Tracy | Dec 5, 2017

My bipolar makes me feel so angry, but I know I’m not. I know I’m not really angry. I know that the signals that I’m angry are coming from my sick, bipolar brain. But I feel very angry anyway. I can’t make the anger go away, even through notable insight. It’s so frustrating and the existence of the anger, and my inability to make it go away, makes me even madder.

Bipolar Depression and Dealing with Mistakes

Posted by Natasha Tracy | Oct 25, 2017

When I make a mistake while experiencing bipolar depression, I beat myself up like none other. I get so angry with myself and obsess over any tiny, perceived mistake I make. Bipolar depression (and depression, in general) is brutal for that. As we all make them, we need to learn to deal with mistakes even with bipolar depression.

Bipolar Is an Invisible Illness — Let’s Make It Visible

Posted by Natasha Tracy | Oct 1, 2017

Many people have made the point bipolar disorder is an invisible illness. That’s one of the things about it that make it so frustrating. People can’t see bipolar disorder; it isn’t part of their reality; so, obviously, it isn’t important or life-altering. Some people take this to the conclusion of suggesting bipolar disorder doesn’t really exist at all. But we know bipolar disorder is real. We know something doesn’t have to be outwardly visible, or even visible under a microscope, to be real. Bipolar disorder may be an inherently invisible illness but let’s do what we can to make it visible. Let’s stand up for the invisible.

Focusing on Not Making My Bipolar Disorder Worse

Posted by Natasha Tracy | Sep 19, 2017

My daily life is based around the single concept of not making my bipolar disorder worse. It seems I’ve gotten past the point where I can do anything to get better, so all I can do is not make my bipolar disorder worse. This is an incredibly depressing realization. This realization posits that I will be in pain every day and the only thing I can do is not make that pain worse. I will continue to be bludgeoned every day, all I can do is make the club smaller.

LGBTQ Youth with Bipolar Need Our Help — Stop Suicide in the LGBTQ Community

Posted by Natasha Tracy | Sep 12, 2017

Suicide in the LGBTQ community is rampant. And in those in the LGBTQ community with bipolar disorder, it’s even worse. Please help stem that tide.

I know many of you are straight — most of you are, in fact. But I’m not. I’m bisexual. I’m part of the LGBTQ community and I’m asking for your help to stop suicide in this community and especially in the community where an LGBTQ person also has bipolar disorder. A queer youth with bipolar disorder has the very highest risk of suicide. This double-whammy of a sexuality that many won’t accept and an illness that can take your life is something that is almost impossible to deal with.

Almost.

When You Don’t Know What to Do Because of Bipolar Disorder

Posted by Natasha Tracy | Sep 7, 2017

I’m often caught in the eye of bipolar disorder and I don’t know what to do. This can manifest as not knowing what to do next with treatment, what to write in my next article or even what action I should take next during the day. I just feel lost. Being overwhelmed with bipolar disorder is definitely part of this, but I think bipolar disorder almost zaps the thoughts of what to do next from my brain. I just don’t know what to do.

Judging My Bipolar Disorder Disability

Posted by Natasha Tracy | Aug 30, 2017

I judge my bipolar disorder disability. I admit it. I do. I wish I didn’t. I wish I were more Buddhist. I wish I could show more enlightenment in this way. But I judge how disabled I am by my bipolar disorder and I just don’t know how not to.